the above photo pretty much sums up how beach day went. ha!
i would like to say that i didn’t have high expectations of how my son would react to his first beach day but then we got there and he HATED it and i was a bit bummed. i just didn’t want him to dislike it SO much. it’s also tricky because we got a baby who won’t/can’t/has a hard time with sleep. he’s getting better at home now (praise the good Lord) but he still will not sleep when we are out. so two+ hours in the car and two+ hours back, plus a shorter visit to the beach because of stress and worry about his sleep and his fussiness. it was a bit ambitious of a trip. he can sleep in the car but if we have to stop in traffic or at a light or a huge semi goes by or a motorbike whizzes by, he will wake up. and that’s what happened. he had a good morning nap and then when in the car at the next nap time, he did finally fall asleep but woke at a red light and then cried for the next hour. i do my best to help him and make him laugh but it gets so hard to do, exhausts me and makes my head hurt worse. woof.
but we made it! and it was a lovely day. e and i prefer overcast, cooler days so we typically hate summer. but like our last beach day, it was 72 and a bit rainy. it was perfect! the sand felt great on our toes. jack did not think so. but he was fine in our arms and laughed and enjoyed looking at the waves. we put up a little tent (IKEA, always), and enjoyed chicken salad and crackers and baby puree for lunch with banana bread for dessert! i love packing our own food. ethan loves saving money. it’s a win, win!
i have two huge frames for jack boy’s room and i knew when we got them that i wanted to do some fun beach day photos to put in the frames. i did envision him liking the sand a bit more so we could get some photos of us all, maybe sitting in the sand, but no such luck. baby wanted to be held. so we just ran with it! i love getting to take our own photos. i love looking through the viewfinder to see my husband and our son together. and see the way my husband captures his wife with his son. i don’t love being in a swimsuit. i actually never have. i’m very modest and don’t like feeling like i’m just in underwear in front of people but i went for it. i found a swimsuit with POCKETS so that’s incredible. and i feel good in my skin because i’m not focused on how i look. i’m focused on who i am as ethan’s wife, jack’s mom and God’s daughter. i also have less time to think about myself when i’m thinking about raising my kid to know Jesus and all the other kids that need rescued. i’ve been very convicted about vanity this summer and i’m working towards ways to focus less on self. these photos make me so happy. i just feel life and love in each one. holding jack is the most natural feeling i’ve ever felt. he fits with us so well. he’s so joyous and delightful. i hope these are some of his favorite photos for ever.