love is | i am

i’ve read before where an author took the word “love” from the famous love chapter in the bible (1 corinthians 13: 4-7) and changed each “love” word to “jesus.” i really enjoyed that and it spoke to me. then, just recently, while reading a commentary on this chapter the author changed “love” to “i” and challenged one to work on these characteristics in one’s life. this very much spoke to me. in a sort of punch-you-in-the-gut way.

today i’m sharing that passage with the word “i” instead of “love.” it will sound very familiar because everyone’s heard this passage a million times. but read it slowly and take it in this time. try to take on these characteristics of love and jesus and become these in your relationships and work place and in your parenting. it is quite the challenge!

“4 i am patient. i am kind. i do not envy. i do not boast. i am not proud. 5 i do not dishonor others. i am not self-seeking. i am not easily angered. i keep no record of wrongs. 6 i do not delight in evil but rejoice with the truth. 7 i always protect. i always trust. i always hope. i always persevere.”

this is truly beautiful. but in all honesty i feel like my life’s passage is sounding something more like this :

“i am impatient. i do not feel like being kind. i have much envy of others. i am self-centered. i am selfish and i don’t want to work on it. i am very easily angered and i am counting wrongs and keeping track. i am not trusting of God’s plan and i am not hopeful. i feel like giving up and not persevering any longer.”

the beauty is that God is my help. i can run back at any time and i do not have to be stuck as an impatient, unkind, easily angered woman who is self-centered. i can choose a deep breathe and a reset. i can restart. even right after a blow up at my husband or baby. there is grace upon grace. and new mercies each morning. i just have to get out of my own way and accept it. it is a free gift.

yesterday was a terrible, no good, very bad, miserable monday in the burt home. but, oh! what a difference a day makes! i woke up with the beautiful “praise God from whom all blessings flow” singing in my heart and ringing throughout my soul. and this morning has been full of grace and delight and beauty. i am free to come back to this every minute, any day, all the time. praise God, indeed.

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